New Beginnings to an Old Life

My heart ached, so I bought some pills

They tempted me into an evil will

I thought it was time to embrace death

What better feeling than eternal rest

Before I knew it, two bottles were gone

but wouldn't you know it, my pain lingered on

This is right before things got real bad

and the start of all the unwanted excitement I had

My ears were ringing, I was practically deaf

because of my unyielding fate, this was not all that was left

I started to vomit all through the night

My stomach, in pain, felt pierced with a knife

At one point my legs went cold and numb

I beat on my chest until more blood would come

Morning arrived and I had enough

I wondered what permanent effects I'd have from this stuff

I got to the hospital. I was kind of scared

They told me to strip down to my underwear

The nurse gave me coal. I drank all of it down

I looked, but there wasn't a single doctor around

They took vials of blood from my veins red and blue

I thought to myself this is it now I'm through

I waited all day for good news to come

I moved to ICU, I still wasn't done

Diarrhea came, the worst case of the shits

I had to go in the open, now that was the pits

The results were in, I had Tylenol in my liver

If gone untreated a poison is what would be delivered

They said I'd be fine if I drank Mucomyst

Fourteen doses later I still had to shit

The time had come to move to the psych ward

later to be referred to only as the fifth floor

My body still reeked and I felt so exposed

At least they gave me back all of my clothes

Their group therapy is what I denied

Until I made a friend and it was time to say bye

I hugged her goodbye, I thought would I see her again

I did as soon as it was time for outpatient therapy to begin

I met lots of people. We helped each other out

They helped me to see what life was all about

I was prescribed drugs, the pills keep me stable

They help me to live more willing and able

I know it's not over, at least this part is done

My new goal in life is just to have fun

An uphill struggle I foresee through the years

At least now I have friends to get me through my fears